stop thinking so much

stabilizing the foundational aspects of my life (finances, career, apartment) and giving up on others (romantic/relationship) has really helped me eliminate a lot of the noise in my head. it was a lot of work, and i had some help with the financial aspect, but once i got the foundation laid out i made sure to keep improving on everything. once i did that i stopped thinking so much.

my new job has a decent amount of ego-driven static. not as much as at other places i’ve been, but shit’ll happen that’ll get on my nerves.

the good thing is, ever since i’ve started to figure out how not to think so much, that shit doesn’t bother me as much as it would have at any other time in my life. i usually get kinda annoyed at it for half an hour or so, call up my sister or my friend, tell them about it and then move on.

this way is so much better!

when baba freddie did a reading to see about my receiving kofa, one of the first things that came up was, “you think too much. your brain is constantly working and you drive yourself crazy!!!” he told me i have to stop thinking and obsessing and plotting and planning and just let things happen. so, with that info handed to me from the orishas, i’m trying to not keep everything so tightly strung out in endless chains of inner dialogue. it’s been going well, so far- except for my job search obsession. i’m having a harder time letting go of that particular mental bone to gnaw on. although, the fact that i’m not totally broke and in trouble has helped me to not take it as seriously as i normally would. but i still plan out that that haven’t happened yet- or may not even ever happen, for that matter. but other than the “where’s my career” issue i’ve been practicing taking it a lot easier. it feels good.