have another baby

I guess I have to change the name of this goal idea to something like “give birth to a healthy baby.” Rand, you got that boyfriend in place?

I was really hoping that I’d gotten pregnant this month, but those hopes didn’t come true. I get too emotional about it all. There isn’t anything more to do and it isn’t like I have absolute control (of anything, really). But every month I get all psyched like I might be and then when I’m not, I get so down like I’ve miscarried or something.

I know I’m young, but why not now? When will be a better time? I think that having my kids relatively close in age is a smart thing. I’d hate for Lexi to be totally freaked out by a new baby. I think she’d be more accepting of a brother or sister at this point than in a few more years.

And I loved being pregnant. My husband thinks it’s time too. So wahoo! We’ll get the house done, move in and get busy!