learn to control my emotions

i hate myself

im supposed to have been working all day… but i lost all motivation and just had a very depressing conversation with my boyfriend and im seriously pathetic because this is a vicious circle – I am an emotional person but i need to stop letting my feelings get to me – i need to work, i need the money and i dont want to let anyone down. i dont want to upset and annoy my boyfriend by laying all my shit on him and half the time blaming our long distance relationship for my feeling bad. my emotions just ruin Everything – i need to stop letting it al get to me, and just get on with life and focus on the future cos EVERYTHING WILL BE ALLRIGHT.

fuck.