stop being a hypochondriac

I decided my hypochondrism (is that a word?) was telling me I wasn’t taking good care of myself. Being a busy mom I always put myself last. I was scared to death they’d find something wrong with me, but I’m FINE!!!! I had a complete physical, full panel blood tests, a pap smear, mammograms (they had to do more than 1 set), saw my dentist, and dermotologist. I had no symptoms you understand, I was just panicky at the thought there was something wrong with me or some hidden cancer or heart disease, like i was gonna have a stroke or heart attack at any given moment. It really freed me. I urge you to face your fears and see if they are based in reality or not like I did.

And yes, that of course does’t mean i won’t be a victim of serious illness, but knowledge freed me. I am running now (I was too scared to before! I was certain I’d drop dead!) and paying more attention to my body and trying to eat better too.
Thank you to everyone who cheered me!!! i’m here for you too.

I would love to stop thinking that I’m going to die any minute. I am obsessed with every bruise and cough I get that i’m dying of some dreadful disease, and i don’t know why. I’ve got a great husband and 2 great kids that need me. I just hear horrible stories of moms just like me that find out they’ve got breast cancer or ms or other horrible ailments and I’m so afraid it’s going to happen to me. I think about it way too much. My husband knows I feel this way and reassures me it’s cuz I love my kids so much and am such a good mom ( isn’t he the best?)