but I hope they don’t. It took a long time for me to convince myself I could and should pose nude. Once I convinced myself it would be something I could do, was to find a place to do it. Fortunately, there is a community college nearby. Upon waiting for clearance check to be complete, time dragged on until I got the first call.
I recall the first time I did this, thoughts like, why would I want to be naked in front of strangers. Another thought was could I once there, get naked in front of people.
I arrived early, and saw the podium in the center of the class room, and students coming in and filling the seat around it. As it became closer to the time I was to model, more thoughts of uncertainty began to race in my mind. It was no question that I would do it, afterall I had committed to this.
And if there was any doubt that I could not go through with this, I looked at the students, who were depending upon me, and this instilled the courage I needed.
The instructor directed me to the small changing stall, in the corner of the room. Soon I was completely nude, under the robe I brought. Standing to the side, I waited for the instructor to direct me into the center platform, to begin the process.
The worst moment for me in this, was taking off the robe. Once I took it off, and began the pose, I began to feel very relaxed. The longer was in this state, the more relaxed I was.
One observation I enjoy while posing nude, is the look of consentration the students have while they focus on me. From time to time we have eye contact. Even though it may seem uncomfortable to have people staring at you when, they are clothed, while you are naked. There eyes are focused on the work not the naked person.
After the session some of the students will take the time to thank me for my efforts. They will tell me other models take way too many breaks. I find too many are reluctant to show me their drawings. Sometimes they think I will laugh, or be critical of their work. I tell them imagine, you have just seen me nude, and I wasn’t embarrassed, why should you be timid about what you drew?
I wish I had done this years ago, it is the best 2 hours in a day for me. Not only does this give me a tremendous opportunity to think, while nude in a pose, but has given more self confidence in conducting my life.
Frankly, I would do it for free, as I think it is a vital part of the art process. For me it is the best kept secret for a safe hobby, that is both rewarding and fun. If too many people get on board, would take time away for me.
But if you are so inclined to pose nude, do it. But if you happen to live in the High Desert of So CA. it’s not for you. lol
