do something

I know I’m going to give up part of my evening to the family… so I need to get myself together, and finish what else I need to do today.

Gotta get over to the school to clean. take screwdriver/drill so I can fix stool and put up more hooks.

target: Want to pick up some more towels. Greens and whites. look at armoire/ wardrobes for storing linens. Maybe there is something that I can get for under $50. the dark prefab looks cheap…

I’d like to clean around the house more, but it seems like I’ve been coming and going way too much lately, and haven’t been able to make much progress… or even maintain what I was doing last month.

I want to make a cleaning chart for home. help keep us on track.

I should clean the litter box. I think Diane has been hinting… ‘cause I know she really doesn’t want to.

walmart: glasses?

steve & berry: bitten?

kroger: staples

costco: dog food

home: blank canvases, paint outside?

go back to work… I’m nervous, even though I’ve only missed 3 work days. We have a new group of kids, and noone has communicated with me, about what’s happened since I’ve been gone. I really don’t want to go back. I keep praying for a call from UAH, so I work in a completely different sort of capacity. I just feel that, somehow, I’m not progressing in this line of work. it makes me feel stagnant.

I will return the shirts to Target, that didn’t work for my trip. I will return the shirt at the Gap, and the other one at american eagle. I am really trying to update my wardrobe, and I think all the stuff I tend to buy is just going to keep looking too casual. I need a dressy casual wardrobe that can mix with what I already have, and step me up towards business attire. I really feel that looking the part is what keeps me from getting the kind of career development I want.

I will go through the box of stuff that I pulled out yesterday, and maybe I can get rid of it all together.

I called my mom and asked her if she wanted to do anything, so I let her drive, and we went a couple of places she wanted to go. she tried on clothes at anthropologie, and I reminded her that negative talking leads to negative feeling… I really want her to feel good about the things she does have instead of the pre-cancerous red spots she’s treating on her face, or the fact that she has gained weight because of her plantar fascitis. She is beautiful, and more than anything, I just don’t want her to tear herself down over and over.

It was good to be with her, and I apologized for being less than myself, and she just smiled… I think she was just happy to have me with her, even if I was having mood issues.

We went to costco, and she referred me, and so I joined (I’ve wanted to be a member at COSTCO for years!). Now, Diane and I can go there together, and she can save on gas, b/c she works right next door. that was a highlight. Maybe she and I will go tomorrow…

I went to Home Depot and they didn’t have the Skil drill, so I bought a more expensive Ryobi that did not include any bits, so I had to pay extra for those… so I’m going to try it out… and locate the other one, and compare how they feel. HD has a 90 return policy, so If it seems like the Skil is sufficient, I will return the Ryobi. It is nice, though, and it came with an extra battery and carying case.

I called Diane, and invited her to go on a date with me :) She drove, but I bought. We had the salad bar at Jason’s Deli. So, good.

I woke up in a fine mood, than I got sharper as the morning wore on… is it b/c my coffee kept making my tongue feel bitter, or is it just one of those natural fluctuations in body chemistry?

So, instead of going into work and organizing my classroom, and having to be social, I am focusing on some of things I’ve wanted to take care of the past couple of weeks. Today is mine.. I might even tell Diane she has to go out with her friends tonight, so I can just work on some me stuff, without wanting to put them aside to spend time with her.

I know I’m cranky, so I don’t want to be short with anyone, and I don’t want a whole lot of personal interaction. I sort of feel like biting.

Anyway, so today I will:

1. buy the Skil 7.5v Lithium-ion Drill/Driver, and whatever accessories I deem appropriate. (check walmart, then home depot)

2. go to walmart and look at their eyeglasses, pick up ibuprofen, maybe some small boxes/baskets to organize the etagier in the bathroom, some athletic socks, more underwear?

3. go to Old Navy, and pick up two pairs of flip flops, maybe a shirt or two.

4. look at Dick’s to see if there are sandals for Diane.

5. then I will put our new west elm bed together with my new electric driver.