let loose

I feel like the Jamaicans lately… they always come across all relaxed and loose. I have been really good at just remaining very even keel and letting things fall as they may. I don’t do anything crazy like I used to… I have outgrown some things but it doesn’t mean I don’t let loose!

I’m not sure why I felt so “tight” when I put in this entry. Something was not clicking with me and it could have been the weather or work or something else in the air! I know when I feel “tight” like I cannot let loose that something needs to change. It’s funny b/c I am a completely different person when I don’t work or when I am on vacation. I try to get “that” person to exist every day but sometimes it’s hard. And sometimes work just sucks everything out of you and it’s tough to regroup. I do believe eating habits are part of that. Once you start eating healthy, you have a renewed energy and perception about yourself. Lately, I have been full of energy, eager to get outside or do something in the evenings/nights. It’s too bad work cramps by style by making me get up too early! ;) Unless I have another entry stating how “tight” I am, considered me let loosed!! ;)

So yesterday was one of the nicer days in a while. I am driving home along the ocean (yes, I am VERY lucky in that way) and I have the windows somewhat down listening to Chemical Bros and other tunes with a lot of energy. I look over to my right and here is this woman in her 50s or 60s in a Beetle with the windows all the way down just taking in the fresh are and totally chilled out. I just thought to myself: why in the world aren’t my windows down!? Am I lame or what? So needless to say, the second half of the drive home was that much better!

And I wanted to add that I am no where close to uptight but I like this entry to remind me to never become one of those people. I see too many of them at work and I just want to always be relaxed and be able to do things without inhibition (although sometimes alcohol needs to be part of the equation!).

A couple weeks ago we went out to see a movie. The parking lot was absolutely packed and it was pouring out. Instead of freaking out about getting wet or not getting a close spot, I just took one of the furthest ones and enjoyed the jog to the theatre as the rain hit my skin. It’s funny to see all the people in SoCal when it’s raining b/c it’s like they think they’re going to melt! Come on! It makes me want to go out there and enjoy it that much more!

Every now and then I forget to let loose. Why? No idea… but I notice it’s usually when there is a lot on my mind or a lot going on at work or uncertainty in some aspect of my life. A lot of people are able to let go and even though I don’t think I am thinking about it, I notice that I am not exactly letting loose.

I see people who are always just joking around, never serious about anything when they’re out, and just having a great time like there is no worry in the world and no concerns. That’s exactly how I’d like to be all the time. And I am good at letting go… but letting loose- I think it happens now and then but I’d like to see me do it more often! Even if it’s putting down the windows all the way in the car, turning up the music all the way, and just have a relaxing drive home from work taking in the (somewhat) fresh air!