have a healthy baby

Lately I’ve been around drugs..Haven’t been smoking them that’s for sure. I can’t really speak up for myself. It’s my boyfriend that takes me to these places just to “smoke” and I hate it. I can’t say no to him. I know it’s wrong. It’s unhealthy me and the baby, and I’ve mentioned it to him a couple of times..I just told him he’s shoving a joint in my babys mouth, also smokes (cigarettes). He says it’s just for a minute that it won’t do anything. But it really hurts me and I need to stop now. Being as young as I am is really hard already..but I know I can do better than that. I can try to talk to him again and stay away some more but it just keeps happening. Even in my own vehicle with the windows open..Honestly it doesn’t help at all.

I just found out I’m pregnant…I’m 17 years old…This is someting really hard for me..Because my Mom doesn’t even know I have sex!..I haven’t even told her though..But I will soon, I didnt expect this to happen. My Mom’s the worst person to tell these kind of things to. And the father is by far the least person I’d ever expect to have a baby with, But it’s my baby..And I’m gonna have this baby no matter what. Next month is my 18th birthday and I’m just gonna go through with it…I just have alot of people to tell…And it’s gonna be hard..I already cryed a million tears today..But I’m ok right now..I hope everything goes as well this year..The baby will be born in November… : ) But I’m just not ready for this..:(

The the picture is me and my niece...