the next eleven days belong to meeeeeee

I spent the day doing what ever i wanted and not feeling guilty about any of it.

I’d had this idea that over my eleven days I would tackle all the tasks on my to do list. I have 35 things to do over the next 16 days and I thought about banging them all out early so I could have a little breathing room.

Taking a little breather today felt perfect though and I think it will help me hit a good, maintainable stride, rather than sprinting like hell out of the blocks and being sidelined with a cramp a quarter of the way thru the race.

but I’m changing the name and scope of this goal.

Last night I took a yoga class and our teacher had us think of someone we would like to dedicate the benefits of our practice to. I immediately thought of my self. I’m having a hard time right now… in a nut shell everything is annoying me and I hate everybody.

I picked exercising as a goal because i know that when i exercise regularly I feel good, but now I see that exercising isn’t the only way in which I need to take care of myself.

so look out August 19th thru 29th because you are MINE!

I guess the goal here is to figure out and do the things that really really make me feel good.

i sat in an egg that was thrown in my car today

this makes it ok to start this over tomorrow

I did it, but i really didn’t want to. I took my walk at 4pm today… that’s never been a favorite walking time for me, especially in the middle o summer. And the spare bedroom were I practice yoga has somehow become clutter central over the past two days. But now i have a little time to clean, all evening to enjoy with my husband and 13 hours before I have to think about how my attitude toward my exercise routine again.

In the past couple of days I’ve been very sensitive to the assessments of others, and in coming to the practice it made me focus on the fact that I will never be perfect and that the only person who can make me feel bad about not being a certain way is myself.

was a success as i met both of my exercise goals.
Day two is getting off to a slow start. I woke up 2 hours later than I’d originally planned and now don’t have time to do the yoga in the morning. But this is OK, I need to be flexible in all ways.
I also need to drink more water, probably why it was so hard for me to keep my eyes longer than it took to check the time and figure out how much longer i could sleep till i absolutely had to get up.

For this goal I will re build my personal yoga practice. Each morning I will go to the mat and practice at least 3 sun salutations.

I will also walk for (at least) 30 minutes a day.

We had a amily tragity reciently and I decided to forgo taking care of my self to take care of others. It made me see that no matter what I have to something to replenish my self every day.
Getting back to doing the things that are good for me (instead of the things that are easy for me) will take work, but will be worth it.