Quit Smoking

third day fell off the wagon…. I’ve done this 4 times now. It’s feels like everybody is trying to annoy me to no end. So I feel like I can’t take the stress anymore and go back to smoking. It’s a lame excuse I know that! Yet my willpower is lost in my thoughts. I need to relearn how to held the stress people cause me without smoking a cigarette. I lie to myself about how the cigarette will make the situations better. So today is day one again. I already feel annoyed as my ex called me in the middle of night to attack my self worth. But life isn’t always rainbows and butterflies.

Well I had a million and one errands to run today…. so that kept me busy. Still craving a smoke. But haven’t done it yet. But it’s almost bedtime so then it’s on to day 3. Got work tomorrow and my pink eye is still noticeable…. Not good. I’m a little moody now too. All in all though when I quit for just one month I’ll be happy to have beat this beast.

Today marks day number one now see I had alot of plans like going out and joining the gym seeing as how my brother just joined and he has a habit of keeping me entertained and focused. Anyways it all went down hill when I woke up and had pink eye…. Now I can’t go anywhere or do anything with the fear of giving somebody my pink eye. When life gives you lemons you make lemonade right. But this hardly seems fair. I’ll only half way through day one. So far so good. except the little eye thing. grrr….. I don’t know if I’m mad over the eye or not having a smoke. So frustrating.

Well tomorrow is going to be day one of my quit smoking. This will be very hard. Here’s to good luck. Hope I can beat it.