be a fashion stylist

It’s that time of year again, where it’s starting to itch, and I’m looking at the introductory course again, and it’s still so expensive (600 euro’s, next year it’s going up to 750 euros), and I don’t know how I’d juggle with the time and all the stuff I’m doing! Too busy, but I’m still so interested in doing an introductory styling course… But I also have to buy a car… I want too much!

The course I want to follow really is too expensive for me at the moment. Maybe after the summer then, if I hopefully also have found a new job which also pays better. But now I just can’t afford to pay for this course…
So it’s back to buying fashion magazines and cutting out pictures and pasting them in my fashion-book.

I talked about it, AGAIN, with my boyfriend, and he offered to pay for half of the course which starts again in January (as a birthday present)... It sounds so good, but once again we could use the money for better purposes than a styling course, and somehow it scares me a bit too. Maybe I’m afraid that after all these years of ‘dreaming’ about it, I’m scared that I could be very disappointed, or that I find out that styling isn’t fun after all, and that I won’t ever be able to dream about it again.
You could obviously say that this is rubbish, as it is very useful to find out it isn’t for me, and that that would be better than dream about something your whole life and never actually try to make that dream a reality… And I would say you would be completely right, but still…
And the money… sigh…

There’s this course at a fashion academy which I want to do, and I’ve been checking it out for a couple of years but each time the time comes to enroll, I have the excuse of being broke… and then I forget about it for a couple of months, and then I remember, and tell myself to enroll, and then I’m out of money again… Somehow I always find an excuse not to take this course, it’s pathetic!