get over him

Please someone make my cell phone disappear. It’s one of the only things that is keeping me attached to this kid. Sometimes I wish texting didn’t exist.. but I can’t help but talk to him non-stop. Aaaah :(

I hung out with him for a little bit today. Stupid stupid me. But I wasn’t tempted to jump on him or anything haha. Maybe that’s a good sign. It’s the first time we’ve hung out as just friends. Ever. And I’ve known him for a year so that’s really hard to do. Anyway, I think spending time with him was a step in the wrong direction.. but the way I handled it was definitely two steps forward. So I’m thinking I’ll be okay. Hopefully…

I’m getting better. We are going to be seeing each other more lately, and I’m okay with that. I even read some old emails from him and they didn’t make me miss him much at all. I just have to keep my cool and hold back from any flirting. (This will be especially hard since I’m a naturally flirtacious person.) I know he’ll expect me to be all over him when we’re together, but I’ll surprise him. It won’t be hard to hold back because I’m slowly starting to get over him. Ughhh wish me luck!

It’s been way too long and I can’t seem to get over him. How do you know when you’re over a person? How do you know when you’re supposed to be over a person? We still talk. He has a girlfriend. Sometimes the things he says to me make me wish I could be with him again. But I know dating him wouldn’t be the right thing to do. He’s going to college soon and I couldn’t get attached again. I just want to kiss him one more time..