Share some of my random thoughts that don't fit under any particular goal

I was overwhelmed to find that I was being trusted and recently I have been given more work of responsibility and power at my work place..in addition to the work I have already been doing. When this order was circulated,I received many compliments..This thing may look small but I value it because if somebody reposes confidence in you, it makes you feel more confident..

Should I blame again that my boss was the reason..by all honesty yes! Now when the things are settled and we had reached on a conclusion that we would make good friends always..commitments were made to ensure each other..But now another thing has been developed,since he is new to my office,he wanted my support to know each thing..persons,work etc. etc.Can you imagine how the things took shape..In the morning when office hours begin he calls me ..We discuss things over a cup of tea..(He has literally done a tremendous change in staff position..took some hard core decision to make working smooth). After fifteen minutes or more he would call me again for discussions on some files. I know he is relying me and have faith and confidence on me that I would never betray him. But..sigh..I don’t have time for myself..Even in lunch hours he would wait impatiently to get it over as fast as it can..My other office colleagues( my lunch partners and friends) make complaints for being ignored..At last when I reach home after eight or nine continuance working hours my mind buzz,I feel so tired that I fall like a dead log. I have never done this much work in my life time..Although it is giving me importance,respect in every aspect (sometimes angry whispers also,when someone is not happy about the decision taken)But I am happy that my life was to take an ugly drift..I saved it. Now my inner self is satisfied that I have taken a right decision..and enjoying my life(at the cost of ignoring my favorite website)..

Its regarding my direct boss in the office..when he joined our organization.He found, being a senior person in the office ..I have quite a reputation. People respect my honesty and straightforwardness..he is definitly impressed and showed more and more interest in me..He admired my dressing up sense. Then one day he proposed his friendship..I said its impossible for a subordinate + boss friendship..but he insisted.I was quite reluctant but did not want to offend him..so just ignored..Now he says he loves me..LOVE at this age..?? I really don’t know how to ignore his meaningful glances and his efforts to admire me in public..Problom is this also that I have to be there with him for long hours. So Its impossible to avoid his company..
I have already had enough in my life and I know the meaning of this love..Infatuation subsides in short time but it gives a hollow feeling.. that lasts forever . Tell me how to get rid of him?

Writing my entry after a whole week. I was out of town in weird circimstances..I was with my sister on complete bed rest..weird,eh? Last week I was facing vertigo problom followed by vomiting. I was shown to a doctor who declared that some vessel behind the ear is being pressed by an artery causing vertigo.He prescribed me handful of medicines containg sedatives and advised me not to drive for another fifteen days and complete bed rest for a week. I took medical leave and proceeded towards my sister’s home. There she took every care of me. I am feeling better now. Today I have joined my office also. So back to work:-).

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It was my birthday gift from office friends..I have their photographs celebrating my birthday in my mobile. It was really a nice gesture,which I loved immensely.

I wanted to run away from my running problems.Same routine,same ambience..life was so monotonous that it seemed like even birds are singing same boring songs.Then I decided to take short break..we just packed two jeans each and few shirts and went to my sistyer’s place(its hardly 200 km away)There we spent total carefree n lavish hoidays,behaving like crocodiles,in the evening we used to sit in our aerodrome facing balcony and sip uncoutable cups of coffee..it was like heaven..I am feeling afresh like recently bloom flower.

Last evening I watched this movie. Gandhi has always been my roll model, a God like figure to worship. Not only as nationalist,as freedom fighter but as a thought,as a school. A compelling, strongest figure with iron determination. But I think I could see only his outer part.I was stunned to see his humanitarian part thru this movie .First time I was introduced with the inner agony of this great man, a deep wound he carried thru out his life in his heart. A rebellion son. who refused to give up his devastating living and roamed around the streets of India like a beggar.. and died beggar.Poor mother Kasturba who herself was a shadow of her husband (no retaliation but herself a strong character and true follower of Gandhian thoughts). She too is helpless, tear shedding, bewildering mother agonizing her alcoholic, cheat son .When the film comes to its end a pin drop silence leaves too many questions to ponder.. Gandhi who could transform whole nation was helpless to change lifestyle of his own son.., who had visibly personality cult against his own father Gandhi. Naturally..Gandhi had great motive to free this country which formed his image larger than life. Movie is presented beautifully, tight screen play..crisp direction and above all beautifully acted by Darshan Zariwala ,Shefali Shah and akshay Khanna.I will give four star. A must see movie.

It is so painful..He was with us from the last eight and a half years..From the last two weeks he was suffering from bronchitis..We were taking him daily to the dr..who was continously giving at least four injections daily..it was hard to ignore his looking at us with mercy pleading.. it seemed as he was trying to control his pains..Yeasterday morning when I started my car, inspite of his weakness he came outside to bid me farewell..I didn’t know it was last time I was looking him in the back view mirror..He was playful with some part of jealous factor,he used to offer his paw if we stroke his wife(another female pet)and always tried to put his head under our palm so we could pat him only..we used to laugh at him,such a woderful and beautiful pomerarian..Today is black day for us..its hard to get over from his fond memories..I pray God to give him peace..

has great value..I realised this very fact when I was dealing with my maid…she is perfect example of laziness..turns deaf when instruction are being given. I was tired and was serious to fire her. But her poverty always stopped me to doing so..Last sunday I offered a cup of tea and we talked cooly. I patiently suggested her to cooperate with me,she also opened her heart and told her problems,some were genuine,I assured her to help her out..now we are on cordial terms..her pretence of deafness has vanished.