I just wanted to check in and give a current update on how I am progressing on this goal. For a bit I was not writing everyday, it was a bit sporadic, though for the month of July I have been writing quite a bit, especially lately. I have it on my “To Do List” each day, as well as “Daily Reflect On Five Things I Am Grateful For”. I am writing down the 5 Things each day in my journal first and then posting what I wrote to to that goal on here to keep myself accountable and to be able to keep track. That is helping me tremendously! For even if I do not write anything else, at least I cracked open my journal and wrote something and doodled a bit.
The past 5 days I have written each day without interruption, and have been actually writing multiple times a day. There were some super insane things going on in my life and I was not really writing about them, because I simply couldn’t… Instead if it was too much I would talk to someone about it. This ended up backfiring in the most awful way and I ended up vanishing for a couple days and taking off to get away from everything and think for myself and reconnect to myself. While away, the only person I could talk to was myself in my journal and I do not have to worry about that spreading rumors or telling me how to think. That was such an incredible comfort and I have thus decided that I am going to keep most of what is on my mind and what I am going through to myself for the time being, especially in this particular area of my life (for others getting involved was far more destructive not just to myself, but to someone whom I care deeply about). So far this has been working out great and I am finding out what is inside of me more than I had known. I am still open to talking to people, but I want to write about it first and get it out and see how I feel and if after reflection within myself I still have a desire to share I can do so :). Though I must be careful what I share with whom.