stand up for myself

My mother had fallen while retrieving the garbage can. At least that is what I think happened, since she can’t recall and I wasn’t around when it happened. Needless to say, we spent several hours at the clinic but thankfully, there weren’t any broken bones. Now my sister says that I should just “bide my time” (until she dies) and stay with her so I can keep an eye on her completely ignoring any wants/desires/dreams that I may have. I feel like I’m fighting a losing battle. I have already taken care of her for 10+ years everyone figures why not 10+ more? No one seems to care what I want.

Sometimes I think that I should get an award for just being here. Existing. If I can make it until the end of next month I will have made my one year at my present job. Believe me, with the shit I’ve been putting up with that is no small feat. But, I think I am speaking before the fat lady is singing. I hope I haven’t jinxed myself. I’m not saying my job is ALL bad. It is just bad 78%-95% of the time. Haha! Maybe I’m masochistic but, I think if I can last that long I will have learned something. While standing up to the boss has not always been a strong point, standing up to others is starting to come a little more easier.