find a therapist that meets my needs

I’ve been to treatment for an eating disorder. I’ve done follow-up. But lately I haven’t done anything and I’m falling. I’m going back to old habits and new habits that are in the same spectrum. I know they don’t work and I hate being so aware of it yet still turning to them. I’m looking for a therapist right now but I”m a little bit worried. I”m worried that I’m going to find someone but still not follow through with the various assignments that they suggest to help me. I guess I’m writing this for a little bit of support because right now I feel pretty lost.