learn to control my anger

being pregnant, this seems impossible, haha.

this is so hard to do. especially when i am really annoyed, like now. i just don’t understand how the same person can let you down over and over again. it makes no sense to me, and it flat out pissed me off. he knows i am angry, obviously, i told him i was, haha. but on the flip side i can’t help it. i always put my life on hold for this one person, and everytime, he is late, and sometimes not just a little late, but HOURS late. he complains about not seeing me enough, then i give him the oppertunity, and what does he do?..spends half his day doing other shit, then says “oops traffic” ya no shit, it’s less than a week before xmas and it’s the middle of traffic hour. he knows this too. it’s like he has no wanting of showing up on time. ugh. this is so frustrating. my hole head is filled with heat, i’m sure i’m bright red right now, i feel like i’m going to explode. why does he do this? shit like this will never make it possible.