get over my fear of flying

I haven`t fly by airplane for two years.Recently I had to fly to Spain for a tour with our orchestra.I was feeling very nervous weeks ahead.Then I tried to prepare myself and to control my fear.I visited several websites with detailed information about fear of flying.I saw that fear of flying is a common form of anxiety disorder.The symptoms numbered there, fit exactly into my experience.Somehow,I felt better that what I was experiencing,was not unique but quite common for many people.
I tried to analyse my fear.What exactly caused it? Did I think that my chances to die in an air crash were bigger than dying in a car incident or illness? What made me think like this? Did I have the feeling of being totally out of control while flying?
Then I confessed to myself how this fear was robbing me from the pleasures of life.How many times I was tempted to stay at home rather than to travel by airplane. At the same time,I love to travel and visit new places! Also,this fear did cost much to my nerves.Why should I tremble in a horrified anticipation before flying and be so nervous and scared?
I reached a conclusion that phobias and anxiety are negative in the sense that they negate something to us.They rob us of something good and don`t offer anything positive in return.Also,we are robbing ourselves of something.On the contrary,one has to try to be more positive,to accept new things and be open to new experience.I decided to turn my back to negative thoughts and instead to open myself to positive ones.

At the same time,I decided that I needed something to rely on during the flight.I promised myself that I was to try to stay calm and focused on my inner peace.
Then the night before the flight I was very nervous,as always.I slept very little and had a stupid dream about flying.However,I didn`t allow this to let me down.When we got to the airport,I felt much better.The tension was gradually subsiding.By the time when we got on the plane I was calm and optimistic.And the miracle happened! I actually enjoyed the flight and managed to preserve my calm.The same mood prevailed also during the returning flight although there was some nervosity in the first minutes of the flight.So,I would like to give a glimpse of hope to everyone suffering from this quite unsettling phobia,that there is a way to cure oneself and enjoy your travels.

I travel by plane since I was 15 y/o. For the first couple of years my main problem was nausea and vomiting.However,it passed with the time and from 1990 until 2001 I enjoyed plane flights.

However,after 9/11 and subsequently,my mother`s death a month later,I started to develop a fear of flying. It manifests itself in various forms: general nervousness before and during the flight;sweating and dizzyness;overpowering sense of fear that every moment something bad may happen and etc. I read that fear of flying is recognised as a common phobia nowadays and I even consider seeking a professional advice,as my job requires travel with plane (not too often but several times in a year),and everytime this costs me much energy and worries to get through it.