be honest

I’ve been 100% honest lately and it really feels good. It’s not as hard you would think but you do end up helping people more often (since you can’t lie to say you have something better to do). I’m very unhappy with myself today… I told this guy he couldn’t bum a cigarette off me because I didn’t have any left (but I did). I feel like crap and I can’t stop beating myself up about it.

i’ve noticed i’ve started to lie less. i was lying all the time before; little white lies that were more “what they don’t know won’t hurt em”. like when my boyfriend was home sick and i was staying with a friend and i went to a party after i told him i was going to sleep. i don’t do that anymore. i just don’t have reason to anymore. i’ve been doing things that i’m not ashamed of and defending the things i think are worth doing anyway.

honesty may be one of the hardest things to live by, but it’s one of the best things to live for.

it’s hard!