get through my quarter-life crisis

there’s no such thing as a wrong choice… just choices.

coming to terms that life isn’t suppose to be easy.

i’m at a fork again.
AGAIN.
a door opens and I’m resisting.. because if i go through, i’m saying no to a lot of other possibilities. the horrible thing is i’m saying no to possibilities not realities.

i just don’t want to settle quite yet.

I’ve been in a rut every since I graduated. I look at my friends and they’re banking on wallstreet, going into law school, being successful entry level engineeers, getting engaged, and here I am not quite sure where to go, what to be, how to go and how to be.

i did get a job lead last week and am still clinging on to the skirt of hope on this one. i see pieces of potential floating over me (this job, that boy, this apartment, that life) and I’m afraid to breathe. Afraid if I so much as sneeze they’d all blow away.

“I’ve always wanted to be somebody, but I see now I should’ve been more specific.” – Lily Tomlin

One of my last courses here at Uni of Texas is an Existentialism class with a renown existentialist. I have high hopes for this class. He’s spectacular and maybe it’ll help me soul-search.

First thing first.. start looking for options/things to do after I graduate.

Graduating in December.
My lease in Austin ends in May. I’m quite upset about that. Never never base your lease decisions/life decisions around a boyfriend. I did, and now I have no idea what I’m doing.