become bulimic

was bad..
i dont know..
like really bad..
my friend got me a milkshake at school and i only got SOME up but barely.. but then i had a game so most likely burnt it off
for came home and mom used the term “your fading away” and MADE me eat a porkchop..
and then i had cake.
i feel
grose.
and tomorrow in first my teacher is bringing in junk food..
and HATES when i dont eat ..
so i need a way to get out of that.
shitfck.
is it ALWAYS hard to do it in public?

okay..
so im wondering..
is it NORMAL,
that even if i havent been bulimic for long..
that today i got forced to eat a cookie..
at my game and then without even meaning to
i was sick?
i pretty much LOVE that..
it made my day .
but now i have a HUGEEEE headachee..
is that normal?
<3

ive just recently started purging,
and its working fine, im not having a huge problem with DOING it..
im just having a hard time with once i start to keep going just with the vomit on my hand it kidn of makes me want to just take it oout and wash it..
and i KNOW i dont want to be doing that because i HATE the feeling of having food still in my stomache..
also im afraid that one day i will eat more then i want to.. and then i wont be able to purge is there a way i can do it .. that will be fast and simple ?

please helpp.

thinkthin<3