be happy

So, I am super stressed and frazzled, in my attempt to work hard to prove to others that I am not a looser and can actually achieve something. My teacher just told me that I am lazy, pretty much. What the hell? I have been working my ass off. Besides, it’s not like she has given me an assignment recently. I am passing her class with flying colors, so what’s her problem?

I will be much happier once I go off to college, but thats seven months away. Sometines it feels like I’m just waiting for my life to begin.

Now, I have more time to relax, be happy, and focus on me and the things I want to do.

Senior projects are done on thursday. Then I will be able to relax, and live again. Also, Going off to college will be good for me, with freedom to do the things I want to do without my parents judgement. And I have a deep desire deep within my soul. I want to go to the Unitarian Universalist church. It’s been three years now that I’ve wanted to do this, so I think I’ll try to make it happen soon.

It was about the pursuit of happiness. Apparently, we control 40% of our happiness. Also people in denmark are the happiest in the world. America ranks #23 in happiness. the link is here http://abcnews.go.com/Health/Story?id=4115033&page=1

I really don’t think there is a way to be truely 100% happy. There will always be something I would want to change no matter how good my life is. I think the best way to complete this goal would be to work on my goals list.

The only reason I feel happy half of the time is because of my boyfriend. See before I noticed him, I was kind of bored with my life. Then this new guy comes into my life all of the sudden, and all of a sudden, some exitement is back into my life, and I have lots of fun flirting with him. Then we start going out, and he makes me feel really special, and I’m on this high, but 2 1/2 months later, this feeling fades, and I realise that its still the same old shit that i had to deal with before. after 2 1/2 months of denying my problems in happy land, I have returned back to reality. It really sucks.

but I’m not sure if it’s true happiness. I just got a boyfriend, we’ve been dating for a week and he makes me so happy. But I feel like the only reason I’m happy is because of him

I don’t have a too bad life. I’m not sad or depressed, but I always feel like something is missing, and that I’m not really happy. What can I do?