eat more

I have an eating disorder and I’m currently in recovery. I’ve only been in recovery for about a month, but I’m doing pretty well. Thankfully my eating disorder wasn’t too severe, but still pretty serious.
I’m 5’8 and about 105 pounds. My lowest weight was 96 just over year ago, but I got better then and went up to 108. Around November I relapsed again and went from 108 to 101, and thankfully I seeked help. I was eating around 500-600 calories at my lowest point, and now I’m up to anywhere from 1200-1600 everyday, which is a huge improvement for me.
Although I don’t always feel like eating, and still wish to look emaciated and “perfect”, I always remind myself that food is good, and safe, and healthy. It’s been my enemy for so long, I’m slowly learning that it’s something I should enjoy and be comfortable with, not fear.
I no longer try to starve myself, count calories over and over again, and weigh myself multiple times a day. I have a long road ahead of me, but I hope that someday I’ll be able to eat 2000 calories a day, and be comfortable with it, and no longer worry about how much I’m eating or what I weigh.
Good luck to everyone else trying to eat more, no matter what their reason, and congratulations to everyone who’s succeeded!