As a child, I was extremely happy. Never cried, giggled all the time. Very well behaved and well mannered. Smiley all the time…
When I began to see all of the troubles in my life having to do with my father, I became more and more negative on the inside…but I didn’t let that change my facade. That was around age 10-11.
When I hit thirteen, all hell broke loose. I became negative with everything I ever did. I became depressed. Rarely, rarely happy.
Freshmen year of high school, I met my current boyfriend and I was happy and positive all of the time. Had a huge fight 1 year after we met, and it set me back to the negativity. Back to all the old memories that make me negative in the first place.
Since then (almost 3 years ago), I’ve been trying to be the happy/positive me. I need to stop being to pessimistic. So negative. So angry.
I want to be happy!
