love myself more

Having a really bad time with it recently. i just see everyone else around me, without a care in the world-just having fun and not worrying about everything. and i just stand in the middle of them, not moving. i dont do anything but work and i seem to have iscolated all my friends, i just never appreciated them. so i have been thinking, i dont like myself, i dont enjoy much of my life anymore, now what do i do about it. i either change, or learn to love myself. i believe that the latter wont happen. only because i have tried it before. i need to change, into the person i want to be

yep, today i feel fine! i am feeling happy to be single again and not just because i can go out and party, also because i am better off on my own than with him and i know i need to be alone for a while.

Well i do feel a bit better today. i had an alright day and managed to stay positive despite not wanting to. and i am quite comfortable to be in on my own tonight. even though i it is saturday night and this time last week i was with my boyfriend. i feel it will be good to spend sometime with myself and get used to it!

I think this is the reason why i cant love myself. i am so scared to be alone and this means i jump from meaningless relationship to meaningless relationship and i can never really be in love without loving myself first. so i think i need to spend more time getting to know myself and getting used to being on my own. my own company cant be that bad!!