Have a totally different life by this time next year

I’m not sure when I chose to start this goal. There doesn’t seem to be a way to go check when I added it. So I’m gonna start right now. I guess the best way to gauge where I’m at is to just write down what’s going on in my life right now. So here goes:
At this moment, I’m still partially handicapped and unable to work full time. I do have an appt with a neurologist coming up in another week or so, and hopefully that will provide some much needed answers.
That being said, I’m not sure what I am going to do for work if they don’t figure it out. I can’t work like this. I can barely get around my house and take care of myself most of the time. My poor kids have to take care of me when it’s really bad.
I am renting a house from Jon, and it’s a really great house. I should be happy for that. But I’m still hurt over losing my house because of Jeremy. I worked my whole life to buy that house and in an instant it was yanked out from under me. I really hope he knows and understands what he did to me and his kids. Jon has offered to sell me this house, but again, if they don’t figure out what’s wrong with me, I won’t be able to work to pay for the house. Even if they put me on disability, that’s not enough to pay for it. It’s barely enough to survive.
I am seeing this really wonderful man, but he is so afraid to get serous. His ex really did a number on him and it’s left him gun shy. I don’t know how to fix that. I know it would be better to just move on and find someone who has less trust issues, but he really is an amazing man and despite being so hesitant, he tries really hard to make me happy. How can I just walk away without trying?
I know things are different than they were a year ago, so I’m sure another year will make a huge difference. Last year I was in the middle of losing my house, I had no source of income at all and my relationship with this man was pretty much non-existent. So I know that things change. I just have very little patience. I need to learn to let things happen in their own time. It’s easier said than done most days though.