idk wat to do
we were so fine bt i fucked it up bc i got angry at him so i PECKED anotha guy.
nd he knows it cuz i tld him. bt only cuz he thot i did sumthin way worse.
bt we arent together nd i tld him that nd he was cryin nd he sed bt to me i was with you.
see even now as i just wrote that i started crying bc i knew that THIS time it was my fault.
yea he lied to me about michelle…bt that doesnt mean he kissed her.
who cares if it was just a peck?
he tld me he wud forgive me if i quit talkin to that guy bt i tld him no.
wat on earth was i thinking??? y was i soo stupid as to not give up talkin to a guy i dnt even kno well for the person i love more than ever??
in the heat of the moment it was bc i was excited bout talkin to sum1 else.
isnt that sad? he was willing to quit talking to michelle bt i cudnt giv up talkin to that guy?
he was crying like i havent heard in months…telling me he loved me…nd all he asked of me was to quit talking to that guy…nd he was crying! asking me why?? why wud i do that to him?
im not gonna lie
hes lied to me so much..,.bt not about stuff like this.
so idk
i want him to forgive me so badly bt im also scared that if he does…wat if he keeps goin back to that jerk who thinks hes in control of ma emotions wen he gets mad?
by that i mean he says stuff like never talk to me again nd its over
yada yada yada
do i txt him or do i keep waitin?
can sum1 help? plz
