Be myself

My biggest problem is always over thinking things when I want to do something. Somehow I think that this is going to keep me out of trouble, but all it really does is keep me from doing anything that isn’t completely comfortable. Part of it is just a lack of trust that I’ll say no to things I really don’t want to do. Anyone who grew up with overbearing parents (especially legalistic christian ones) will know what I’m talking about. The criteria for doing something is really high, like “is this the best thing to do right now?” which is totally unanswerable and anxiety producing. Even lowering the bar to “is this a good thing to do?” would be better. Of course getting it down to “is this not a bad thing to do?” might work out better. Part of it is just to make a conscious decision to use one of these statements and stick to it so you don’t feel like you have to weigh every single urge you ever have independently. I don’t want to just be an animal and do everything I have the slightest impulse to do, but at the same time being paralized is stupid too.