I need need NEEEEED to do this again.
I mean, I have NOTHING – NO. THING. – to be sad about. Yet, I am constantly sad and I cannot shake it alone.
I have had good therapists before but because of the way things work in my life, I do not have them anymore, and even if I wanted to I would not be able to get them back. Not by any fault of mine – again, it’s just the way that things work in my life.
Point is, I either need a New Best Friend or a captive audience. A captive audience is easier to find, especially if they are the sort you can pay money to, or that your insurance can pay money to.
I just need to find ways to shake this darkness that hovers over me all of the time. Since the drugs aren’t necessarily working, and since very few people seem to understand that this is a chemical thing INSIDE ME, not just a switch that can be flipped on and off at will, I’m thinking this is really something I need to try again.
...and hope that it really helps this time.
