feel attractive

I can relate to that feeling. I will be vocall about it and then people around me will say. “you are not nerdy.” But I feel it so why not embrace it. I push people away as well because I am convinced they will eventually find someone more attractive. It’s a fear of sorts. I feel most attractive before I leave the house. But most of the time I feel gawky and fair. I hear models on TV say that is what makes for the most beautiful women. “Gawky, odd, not average, slightly cartoonish.” But it’s less comforting in the world of average. People are attracted to normal maybe. Anything else is too hard too decide on.