overcome anxiety

I am kind of struggling here again.
Maybe its the time of year.

I am having anxiety about my teaching, and about my boyfriend, and about my future.

I feel I’m not a good enough or knowledgable enough teacher.

I feel like he doesn’t want me.

I feel like it won’t come quick enough.

I’ve been doing pretty well, at least in comparison to how I was 3 months ago.

I’m doing 5 mg of Lexapro now as opposed to 10 and I think its a good balance so far.

I’ve barely needed my Ativan and I’ve only had one partial panic attack since I’ve been back in Waco- it was totally called for as I almost got pummelled in a fight at a show.

My boyfriend claims he hasn’t seen much of a difference and sometimes I feel like nothing has really changed. I think overall I am more happy or relaxed or whatever.

I’m going home at the end of February and I want to make a psychologist appointment just to touch base.

Officially diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder today.

I will be starting Lexapro and am hoping for the best. I really liked my psychiatrist and will hopefully see a psychologist before the week is through.

I am very relieved. Maybe I can start eating again. Hoorah!

I think I’ve been dealing with this for a month and didnt even realize it. I’ve had several days when I have crippling stomach pains that cause me to miss clas.

This weekend I came home from college for my sisters birthday. I came home Thursday night and went out to a concert with my boyfriend and our friends and I was fine.

Friday morning after eating a small breakfast, the stomach pain hit and my mom made me go to the doctors. Right before I left I began dry heaving, but never threw up. The doctor ordered blood work and a sonogram.

Saturday morning was blood work day and in the car I had what I guess is a full blown anxiety attack- my whole body shaking and crazy breathing. My mom drove me straight to the emergency room where I was seen right away. I got my blood work and sonogram done there- only to find that everything was normal. I was prescribed lots of medication to treat acid reflux disease and ulcers.

I woke up Sunday to another anxiety attack and it was decided I would not be returning to school this week, which made me even more anxious.

Today is Monday and I’ve lost 4 pounds since Friday because I feel that I am unable to eat due to my stomach which is due to my axiety and its all one big terrible cycle. My medications are helping but I will be seeing a psychiatrist and a gastrointerologist this week. I hope having this week away from school will help.

I most anxious about not getting better…