become more independent

I feel like everyone always discourages me. I want to do things. I want to travel, I want to learn to surf, I want to run a marathon, I want to sell houses and I will but it is hard because I find little to no support from my family. If I say that I want to sell real estate they say that the market is bad. If I say that I want to run a marathon they doubt my ability. If I say that I want to buy a surf board they say that I will probably go twice and never again. I know that they love me but how am I supposed to become a more independent, strong, adventerous person when I am not allowed, by the people closest to me, to grow? I feel sad. I wish I had someone who would just support my dreams no matter what but I guess I just have to find that in myself. I should really decide to just stop sharing my dreams and learn to believe in myself. I need to become truly independent.

I went and took pictures today. I went all by myself and drove around and took pictures of the beach and the sunset. It was a blast. I am fighting with my boyfriend..again, for no real reason so it was good that I actually did something and didnt just sit at home and think about him. Can’t wait to get the pics developed to see how they come out.

I want to find myself. I need to find my passion and become happy just being me and by myself. I am in a relationship at the moment but find myself scared of being alone. I am so dependent on having someone. I need a partner and am scared to go through life without one. I need to find happiness and to do that I should work on becoming more independent. Any ideas???