Establish a healthier relationship with myself.

so, I think to accomplish this goal I need to be completely alone. I rely on others to make me happy and that is good for either of us. I think that, given my present situation, that is going to become easier soon. Here is my idea. I want to get in my car and just drive. I want to maybe drive across the U.S., I don’t know. I want to learn that being alone is okay. I tend to define success with being in a relationship but I don’t think I will ever have a healthy relationship until I learn to be alone. I am scared to death but I think that if I just force myself to do something different and scary I will end up finding out who I really am. The time is right. I should just go.