Since I went back for the second course last week, I’ve been meditating daily in the ‘fusho’ or unborn style – which I’ve found quite natural (well, supposing I’m doing it right!) and rather nice.
However, today’s second class tried out the ‘koan’ technique, with our question-to-ask (on the out breath, letting our selves answer on the in) set as “Who am I?” And it was horrible. Don’t know if anyone has found a good experience with this style, but my mind flitted through some painful memories before bringing me to tears with a throw-back to bad hospital experiences – while I was trying to be very open and looking deep inside me. Urgh.
As a result I’ve been in a horrible mood all afternoon, with everything feeling like an attack. I didn’t realise meditation could turn nasty!! :(
Back to fusho for the rest of the week’s practice, methinks
