Today sees the start of a challenge from Oprah and Deepak – daily free meditations available! The theme is ‘perfect health’, which seems entirely appropriate :)
Why I never seem to keep to a habit of meditation…! So it’s very good to have this challenge to get me back to it a bit :)
Today… I’ve had a lousy weekend, feeling blue and unmotivated. Today started out with a headache and that sense that I still couldn’t get myself moving. After meditation, I just… lightened up. Stopped seeing everything so negatively, so dramatically.
Yup, more please!
Since I went back for the second course last week, I’ve been meditating daily in the ‘fusho’ or unborn style – which I’ve found quite natural (well, supposing I’m doing it right!) and rather nice.
However, today’s second class tried out the ‘koan’ technique, with our question-to-ask (on the out breath, letting our selves answer on the in) set as “Who am I?” And it was horrible. Don’t know if anyone has found a good experience with this style, but my mind flitted through some painful memories before bringing me to tears with a throw-back to bad hospital experiences – while I was trying to be very open and looking deep inside me. Urgh.
As a result I’ve been in a horrible mood all afternoon, with everything feeling like an attack. I didn’t realise meditation could turn nasty!! :(
Back to fusho for the rest of the week’s practice, methinks
Just to track progress: 7 for 7 this past week, hurrah! First I’ve managed that consistency since the course.
Right now my practise isn’t necessarily the best quality, but at least I’m getting into the routine. Some days it does me a lot of good, so well worth working on it :)