tell him I like him

I don’t know why I still like him. I caught a glimpse of him and I really saw for the first time how ugly he is. Now I know you’re not supposed to like someone just based off of my looks, but just realizing that I like him despite his unattractiveness makes me a little troubled. I really don’t know why I like him still. Maybe it’s because we almost went out. I don’t know. I hope that I either a) stop liking him or b) get a rockin hot body by doing that 30 day shred and losing the weight, and then I can rub it in his ugly face, since I doubt he likes me at all. He used to, but I don’t think anymore.

I’m not even sure I like him anymore. After I found out about him going out with Kayla Brookshire and how she gave him a blowjob(and so much more plus their breakup), I don’t really find him appealing anymore.

I’m not sure if this will ever happen. And I’m not even sure that I want to do this. I am shy. And I doubt that he feels the same.