be a better girlfriend

Things were going good for awhile I guess, but yesterday I got mad at him and yeah I’m still mad at him, this is the longest I’ve been mad at him. He apologized to me, not even knowing what he did wrong and I haven’t accepted his apology nor do I really want to at this moment. Augh!

Yesterday I got mad at him again, but augh at least I made up after several minutes went by.

I got mad at my boyfriend again today. I basically misunderstood something he said, and what I heard him say scared me. I finally asked him about it later, and he told me he had said something entirely different. And his reasoning for why he wouldn’t say it to me was totally legit. I need to stop getting so angry so much at him and definitely ask him about things before I jump the gun. To think breaking up with him crossed my mind today!

I’m so mad right now. I called my boyfriend last night and only talked to him maybe 14 minutes, then a few minutes before midnight I cut the call short so he could call his ex girlfriend, whom he wanted to call because he was worried about her. He said he would call me afterward but then never did!

Instead of bottling it up and pretending like it didn’t bother me, that it was “okay,” I’m going to speak my mind with him. I feel that’s my way of being a better girlfriend, in this situation.

edit @ 1:11 PM: Talked to my boyfriend and he said he didnt get ahold of his ex so he just went to bed. He said he was sorry for not calling me and asked if I forgave him, and I did.

Last night my boyfriend went to the hospital, and I was so scared and worried. If we didn’t have our long-distance relationship I would have gone with him.
He was checked over and they found out he just has the flu; I was thinking it was something much worse and that I could have lost him. I couldn’t sleep and stayed up til he called me when he got home at like 1 AM or so. He was touched that I stayed up so late from being worried. This whole incident has made us closer, I feel.

Skyping with my boyfriend, and I feel so much love for him so that’s good, makes me feel more loyal to him I feel.

I really love my boyfriend but because of some issues that have been exposed more than once, I’m left insecure and often distrustful of him. I really want to rid myself of these personal issues and to treat him better than I have been.