get over my ex

I talked to him on the phone last night for the first time in a year. We talked for over three hours – and I know neither one of us is over it yet. What am I supposed to do? I plan on marrying someone else in the Fall – but I’m not over my ex. Half of me wants to get on with my life and half of me wants to go running back. My fiance is the sweetest person in the world and I can’t imagine hurting him. This is hell.

My sister hung out with my ex on new years eve… met his new girlfriend. I didn’t want to hear details – but I found myself asking. She’s a doctor – and extremely smart, just like him. I can’t help being a little jealous. But – I always knew he would be able to find someone more like himself. She probably lives up to that perfect ideal person he was always trying to make me into. I could never be what he wanted…

My sister spoke to my ex a couple days ago. The girl he’s been dating is going with him to meet his family over Christmas, then they are going to Philadelphia to meet her family. There really is no going back. I guess we’ve both moved on. But I just always hold a little glimmer of “what if…” in my heart. That’s not fair to his new girlfriend, or my fiance!! I can’t help it – he was everything to me.