be more joyful

The past several months have been kinda brutal. Even my body feels bad; waking up to tight muscles, like I’d been trounced in a fight the previous day. I don’t look glowing and happy, I look gray. I have more coping skills than I’ve ever had, so I need to brush off the rusty ones and put them all into action, stat.

The “I’ll eat rocks and razors” attitude may be great for getting me to class and work on time, but it’s not exactly the tip for keeping me in a positive mood. I think I can afford to expand my frame of view a little now that things are slightly calmer and the weather’s nicer.

temp. update: a sub-goal for the next 2 weeks is not completely imploding. I am doing pretty well, practically speaking, but I’m getting that stupid deja-vu-of-everything-awful feeling. [Finalz.]