im such an idiot.
however…it has been the week of my birthday,
an tonight i had NO bread and didnt eat my carb with my entree…and i didnt get a dessert.
im so weird…im probably only 117.00 lbs, but im still weird about this. ugh. why.
why!! seriosuly, i think its because i have very good self control on the weekdays…and so i feel like on the weekends when i am with my boyfriend and friends i can eat whatever i want because i will comensate for it on the weekdays…but when you are trying to lose a little bit that doesnt help. annoyyyying! seriously, i suck at this.
im going back home for a bridal shower and my boyfriends birthday…..this is a recipe for disaster, but im going to try my best on this one.
i promise. im not going to be with a TON of people that make me happy….im going out for a birthday on saturday…and i will drink…but only diet coke and vodka. and i will NOT eat extra calories. not going to happen.
especially on the weekends!!!!! ugh
i do so good during the week…and then it just goes to shit
i just had a bowl of ice cream….by myself…that never happens…i have turned into a fat piece of lard dripping with calories and saturated fat!
i will be with my boyfriend and my parents are coming up to see me, and its definatly going to be one of those weekends where you are just so happy that you could really give a shit about how many calories you are injesting. im going to try to be pretty respectable with what i eat. Im not going to diet persay, but sometimes i go a little overboard. hehe.
and i will let myself sometimes. But sometimes when im with my parents, my boyfriend,and friends…and just pig the eff out and i cant stop because im happy, and i could care less at the moment. Then i feel guilty after and it sucks.
