be a better girlfriend

unfortunately

And when he was late one day he apologized. Not calling him worked. But why are these games necesary.

You know what. I rub his feet. I make him steaks with baked potatoes and a veggie and I deliver them to his house. If I see he’s out of something in his house I pick it up when Im at the store. I give him backrubs when his back hurts. I even rub that smelly shit on there. And more, A LOT MORE. And all I wanted was a phone call to wake me up cause m gnna be working soon and I have to practice gettting up early. THREE times he forgot. I didnt complain. I just asked him to wake me up tomorrow. I am so not calling him. If he forgets tomorrow then he is not worth it. This thing has to work both ways. I really liked him but if i was important to him he would have rememebered.I know hes not gonna call tomorrow. I have been totallly loyal. If I treated him like crap he’s proabably be nicer. The sad truth of men. You gotta make them work for the shit and you cant be too nice. Similar to dog training. I spoiled my chihuahua too..

JOhn Gray Men are from MArs, etc. It says that Vinnie’s just in the man cave which is what they do when theyre stressed out and he’ll come out when he’s ready and it has nothing to do with me and that I should go entertainmyself with other stuff. So Im gonna. Just got back from the gym. I kicked butt today.

he doesnt feel the same way about me that i feel about him. Im gonna start seeing other people. I think. I dont know if I should hang in there and see what happens when the dust settles and his custody battle is over. Right now he’s obsessed with his kids and I would be too if I were him..but maybe its not the situation. maybe its just me. I cant tell if he likes me or not. I mean, when you love arent they the first one you call when you get news. All my friends, male and female say the i love yous should have come by now. So if its not soon, then its not happening. Another couple of weeks tops.
Even my husband didnt want to marry me. I wish he was still alive. This sucks.

Im such a loser. I hate me.

I think it may be time to move on. sadly, I love him…waaahhh. waah..blowww.snots…..snifff

How do you define “something serious” is that like marriage? Or is that like not sleeping with other people. He doesnt want something serious right now. Its not like I proposed or anything. Or said the L word. sheesh.

Im just not normal I guess. How do humans have relationships here on Earth? I feel like I just landed.

he left the party to hangout with me!!!!!! And I didnt call him…Out of the blue he left the party and called to take me out to dinner! He was only there a hour. And it was a good party :) I heard all about it…awwww he is perfect..I take it all back…we went to a place on the river and we could see the empire state building up pretty close.. it was nice…he da man after all…new goal: have more faith in him…