meditate every day

I need to do something nice for myself because I’ve been getting much to stressed lately. I believe that meditating might help me feel a little more grounded and happier, so I’m going to start doing this again.

and then I stopped. Right now, I can’t commit to this goal, but I don’t want to delete it altogether.. so instead, I’ll say it’s been done (thought not too recently) and then, when I’m ready to tackle it again, I’ll throw it back on my list.

Breakdown, honey take me through the night
Breakdown, I’m standing here, can you see?
Breakdown, it’s alright, it’s alright, it’s alright.

I was just going to leave this entry at that… but it probably only makes sense to me…

I haven’t been meditating and my life has become so chaotic that I’ve started developing some nasty habits. This weekend, I had a couple of crying fits and I realized that I am trying to do too much and to be too perfect. I think if I start meditating again, this could change. I could have some breathing room in my life… so, that’s why the TP lyrics.

It’s funny how so many of these goals are never-ending. It’s a constant flux of working at something and forgetting to work on something, until you realize why you were working on it in the first place, etc.

I took about one week off from meditating… it just slipped right by. It’s a process… and I’ve just got to get back on that horse and try again.. so, one month, starting with today.

I’m beginning to wonder how I ever coped without meditating each day. It’s the most relaxing thing that I do. At first, it was a struggle to increase my time, and now it’s like I crave staying in the peaceful place longer and longer. To be fair, I’m only up to about 20 minutes, but that’s pretty awesome for me.

And I’ve noticed that I’m more disciplined when it comes to resisting giving into temptation. I am much better at saying “no” to spending and things like that. It’s a great bonus for something that chills me out so much!

I meditated every day for a full week now. I’m so glad I finally did that… I’ve been meditating for about 13 minutes each time, which is really good for me. I hope that I can increase my time to at least 15 minutes this week.

Not bad, not bad at all so far… I’ll check in, in a week or so…

But first, I just want to say that I really enjoy meditating. I feel so relaxed and centered this morning. It makes a real difference in my day. I’m calmer and also more compassionate towards others. I’m more aware of my feelings and what is causing them and I don’t react with emotions as quickly as I normally would. It’s really quite nice!

I’m ready to tackle this goal, but I really need to take it easy because I’ve gone on meditation binges before and they’ve been great, but it was unrealistic for me to keep it up the way I was. I plan to meditate at least 5 minutes every day, then, when I’ve got that down solid, I’ll tack on some more time.