Accept and develop my intuitive side

While this, like many of my goals, is a lifelong skill to develop, I’m very happy with where I am with this goal for the moment. I’ve really started getting into my tarot reading and I’m even reading for parties and things like that… I’ve also been cherishing my intuition more and more. I pick up on a lot of things that other people don’t seem to and I’m seeing how this can truly be a gift.

The other day, I was standing next to a girl I work with and my intuition said, “She’s going to meet someone”. I decided to tell her, since I felt the impulse very strongly. Two days later, she was swept of her feet by a visitor from PA. While they’ve only known eachother for a little while, it seems that my intuition was right! It was a very strange experience…

So, I did the foot intuition exercise that I’ve been putting off from that book. It was fairly interesting. Basically, you just let your feet do the walking until you get a feeling in your gut that tells us to stop. Then you have to meditate on why your feet led you to this place.

My feet brought me to an old facade of a building right across from the Hatch Shell. The facade is in ruins, with graffiti sprayed all over it and pieces of cement missing from it. There’s also grass and plants growing all over it.

While some people may find this a disturbing place for your intuition to bring you I, personally, thought it was very inspiring and spoke well of the way that nature takes over where people leave off. The facade looked beautiful because of the vines growing on it and the grass on top of the roof. It was odd and unique. I felt like I was encouraging myself to let go and relax and let nature do the work it needs to to help me be beautiful and unique.

This was a very appropriate message, since I’ve been thinking about my own identity lately and about how Buddhism believes there is no absolute self. Without boring anyone to death, I’ll just say that I’ve been wondering about how an identity would form if you didn’t take stock in it. If I decided that I wouldn’t bother trying to present myself as a certain type of person (which I’ve been toying with the idea of) how would I appear to others? Would I turn into a lazy slob?

But seeing this place gave me my answer. To some, I may appear to be a mess or to be without a place in society (just as the building appears), but to myself and others who really take notice, I will be unique and have something unique to offer. I will grow in unexpected and non-traditional ways.. sounds good to me!

I’ve always had intuitions before big changes in my life and I’ve decided that I want to harness this ability and see what happens.

I started reading ” You Already Know What to Do : Ten Invitations to the Intuitive Life” by Sharon Franquemont. It’s a very good book. The only trouble is that there are a lot of tasks and I’m stuck on one in particular right now because I haven’t had the time to do it. I’m going to get around to it soon, though, because I want to know what’s next! Really, if anyone’s looking to develop their intuitive side, I think this book is a great tool.

We’ll see!