finish 4th step

It really was. I am still not sure about how I feel about it. I am in my 5th year of recover and this one was very different in alot of ways. I just hope that it was okay. I am not used to not using the old format, its just that the old format no longer really fits me.

I have finished all 6 gory pages of my 4th step. Now on to the hard part of sharing it with my sponsor and God. But the writing is done. Whoa, six pages.

Yes, its true. My God, it is tonight. Tonight I start the 4th step. Nothing is holding me back. I am scared. I want ciggarettes. I want ice cream. I want donuts. But you know what? I am just going to drag my lap top to the bedroom, my son is already sleeping (and that in itself is a miracle) and get to work. Wish me luck people.

I have been either “working on” or getting ready to work on my 4th step for 2 weeks now. Today is the day. Oooooooh. I am scared and not looking forward to it. I am just glad to be done with it. Cleaning the closet out. Yuuuuuk.
today around 3:30, have bbsiter and will go to park to pray and write. I have a lot of character defects….

seems like there is so much to do today.
laundry
dishes,
call K.s school
set up her a tutor
grocery for carrots, celery,
dry cleaners
nails.
call Noelle to bbsit
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