To live instead of exist

outgoing..full of energy..full of color..positive that’s who i am going to be

i lost one of my friends today morning to death…only 21 and he is gone so young
i swear i am living my life with no heart at all and this MUST change

i need to bold..i am disappointed in myself today..in school there was an event and anyone in the audience was called to dance in front of the crowd..for fun and for a free t-shirt… i really wanted a t-shirt but i was shy and i know i can bust a move hehe..so i sat there and watched the shirt go to someone else…
i need to be brave..so reality hit me..i dont want to rely on alcohol to make me feel bold OR to have a friend or 2 around for support,i need to have a brave side that comes in handy all the time-a bold side of me that i am confident in..if you think about it the most epic things happened to the person who said ‘i can do it- and i will do it’ that’s how it starts. well i learnt a lesson from this

this is the beginning of new things..I’m not going to live my life in the back ground anymore.. i have noticed the people who actively participate in their lives have fun and they love their life
no more talk though… more action

life feels different right now…in a not so good way

i need will-power!

i told my ex i still like him…i knew i had feelings for him and they were growing stronger whenever i saw him but to say it to him in person was just an awesome feeling he couldn’t believe it and was speechless but also thanked me for being open..i don’t want to get back with him(or maybe i do-still not sure)... things like this remind me i can do anything-anything is possible.
am really happy right now!

i breathe!

whole hearted living without holding anything back

working on a goal on 43things and striking it out when it’s been accomplished is part of living, they give you a sense of direction on what you want to happen in your life.. :-)

yesterday i received news that a friend of mine passed away on Sunday..we weren’t close but we knew each other but havent talked in years..she was only 21-life is just a bit too short..that’s why i need to work on this goal!!