discover who i really am

I’ve been listening to a band I’ve loved since I was in 4th grade. Something Corporate. It really inspires me to actually be someone; effect at least one person’s life. I don’t want to be the person who you think is going to accomplish so much in their life, they have so much promise, and then you see them years later as someone who’s fallen from grace. I want to push myself that extra mile. I don’t want to see myself fall. I need to push myself in school and stop being so lazy about everything. I want to show all of them I can be someone who actually becomes something and figures out what I want to do instead of just screwing around.

I feel like I’m living in the shadow of my sister. I’ve been told at least twice a day that I look, talk, speak exactly like her. I mean, it’s a compliment, but I feel like I’m not original. A biter. She’s going off to college this summer, so I feel that this year and next year, I’m actually going to explore who I am. I’m sick of not knowing who I am, not having a real opinion. I’m not just a parrot. I’m my own person.