I didn’t ever think the coaches would pick me as one of the team captains, but they did – and last night, while we were out of town at an XC meet, all of the freshman girls told me how much they loved all of the captains this year. It was good to hear and overhear. I feel more like a leader, too – I’m getting better at speaking up, taking charge, thinking up innovations, and doing whatever it takes to get the job done.
I hope this is a permanent transformation!
Right now I think I’m one of five candidates for the three captain positions on the girls’ XC team. I think I could lead – I’m okay at it when I’m involved in something that I really believe in. I don’t really care if I’m a captain or not (though it would be fantastic, because I have some awesome ideas for the team) but I AM a senior, and all of the seniors are supposed to take up some leadership.
So, for the goal – build self-confidence. Build presence and charisma. I don’t feel like a senior yet (I don’t think the underclassmen even realize that I’m a senior), and that might be part of the problem.