Express myself creatively

only for the time being. Being creative is an ongoing life long pursuit..(it is also duplicated in a couple of my other goals on my list).

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I didn’t do that Schmid-influenced drawing (entry below)..but yesterday I went to a “mask making” workshop. I normally wouldn’t take something like that but the class was offered to me for free so I did it. I had a good time and I’ll go back next Saturday. My mask is just 1/2 done.

based on Schmid’s figuarative work in his book. The drawings he demonstrates are “liquified”. Schmid uses acetone to create a painterly look in the drawing. I think I remember doing this in drawing class a long time ago. I liked working with graphite in art school.
I took my work with me to therapy but I skipped showing them. No one noticed and that is fine. Therapy really doesn’t seem the place to do show and tell. I am confident that they would’ve thought my work was good etc. I am not there to get kudos. I am there to make goals and be held somewhat accountable! Sort of like here…except there are actual people sitting across from you.

and I will be talking through my difficulties with my group. Now lets see, that is two types of support isn’t it? people are support and canvases are support.

...”quitting” painting. The group wants me to bring some of my work to the next meeting along with my “failed” work. At first I thought this is a really bad idea. I told them I doubt that they will dislike my work..(can you imagine a room full of people in therapy critiquing my work? First, they aren’t qualified and 2nd they will undoubtedly try to be nice!) So, I am supposed to bring my work..to what…have a bunch of folks tell me that they are all “pretty”???
Well, after a certain amount of pondering here I have decided that I will take a booklet that shows my work prior to my (for lack of better words) breakdown. and also I will take the work that brought me to a screeching halt. What the heck. They deserve to know why I am there and a picture is worth a thousand words.

Richard Schmid books. If anything will inspire me it is Richard Schmid. What an artist! His work is astonishing. A contemporary master.

I didn’t go. Well, something came up and quite honestly..oil painting seems best pursued in a “solitary” fashion. Not sure that I can mix up socialization with oil painting (although I did that last year). I thought art friends might give me a shot in the arm*. I do plan to attend the critique session planned for next week.
*The truth is that what I am experiencing is typical resistance. I am making up excuses. Oil painting is work. If I want to be any good at it, it is not something to engage in only when the fancy strikes. It is work. I have to accept that and do the work.

Breakfast is scheduled for 8:30 tomorrow. I SAY I am going to go to breakfast with my artist friends but as the time and date approaches I start to think up reasons to NOT go, etc. Well, maybe I will make a point to ORDER a waffle. seems appropriate.

We are going to discuss what WE are doing for the winter. I’d best consider my options..since I haven’t started up on my own yet. Some like minded people might just be a boost for me right now.