"Compliments Journal"

only I don’t think it’s right for me just now. xoxo hugs all!

i guess for me some of the challenge is in learning to accept praise. and with that to really feel it and believe it IF it resonates with me as true to who I am.

i can tend to find reasons to discount it. i really thought i was a pretty confident woman until taking on this goal. i think confidence must be a process like anything else-something we at times are farther away from than we’d like, but that awareness shifts our focus to moving towards it again.

I feel most confident in myself when I am aware that the words I speak, the actions I take, are in align with my deepest purpose and values..When I feel like I am energized and engaged in the perfect balance for me of doing and being. I also have a strong need to be of service, to contribute.

My highest values currently are:
to offer lightness and laughter to others :)
to inspire and feel inspired
to empower and lift up
to discover and learn
to experience and help others create harmony/peace
to express my creativity in the world

so uhmm where was I going with this post? haha

it meant a lot to me to hear the other day from my coach who knows me well,

“You are ready for this! You already are an excellent coach, I just know that. Look at how long you’ve been engaged in the learning of coaching and how long you’ve been naturally using these skills with friends/family,former clients, etc. You’ve been providing such value and for “free” for a long time..I know you will provide your clients with such care, attention, and quality coaching..You will give them more than you even have to, because that’s you.

or something like that.. i took notes after our conversation b/c it was such an uplifting conversation. it made me realize the truth, that I am quite prepared to coach clients AND to begin making a nice living from it. sometimes it’s hard to be patient. :)

the discussion came about in part due to my discomfort about setting a fee for my coaching services and to my decision (for now) to hold off on doing any further pro bono work because of my need to transition from being a student.

You see I am really feeling challenged by this goal. :)

I feel uncomfortable and embarrassed about “tooting my own horn” here in what feels like a rather public way. It’s easier for me to share how I messed up on something or what I’d like to do differently.

Isn’t that funny? That’s why I’m going to stick with this goal for awhile b/cthe uncomfortable feelings tell me there’s learning in store for me!

I kinda felt like this when I had the Commit Random Acts of Kindness goal. :)

This from Mama Kitty (43T)yesterday. She embodies love and lightheartedness in my eyes. So kind. Her words made me giggle, blush, and say awwww. :)

“I’m not as new aged as Chai, but I really enjoy her New Aged approach to things. I also like the way she expresses herself. Actually, I just love her because she’s fresh, and fun, and smart, and full of love!”

With each goal that I “try on” I like to set my specific intention and think about how I want to approach it.

So with this one, I believe I will focus mostly on the acknowledgments that I receive-those words that are spoken or written by a person who really sees my innerCHAI (get it, inner child?! kinda weak, really!?)When I feel seen and acknowledged, it feels special and puts a spark in my step. I just forget to remember and recall it at the times that I’m feeling downhearted. You know? :)So hey! that right there is my intention for doing this journal..To create a deeper awareness and appreciation of my unique constellation of talents, gifts, and strengths.

I want to be mindful of not becoming too attached to even the good things that others say about me. For me, this is about feeling centered in myself & in spirit so that what others say or do doesn’t uproot me.

As a reminder to me (and maybe it will be helpful to you too :), I’m posting the Four Agreements.

The Four Agreements

Agreement 1: be impeccable with your word
Agreement 2: don’t take anything personally
Agreement 3: don’t make assumptions
Agreement 4: always do your best

Rosie invited me :) I used to keep a nifty thing I called my “Feel Good File”, similar to a compliment journal.

:)