Purify my intentions

Some times I can start off with good intentions and not even realize when my good intentions starts to fade. I must always ask God to purify my intention for His sake only. I must keep my thoughts pure in good and toward Him only…. despite people.

I am working really hard on this issue. InshAllah God will give me the strenght to conquer this goal. The stradigy I am using now is to always think of other people as better then myself. God Has been so good to me and He has blessed me very much. But I still feel un worthy because I have so many flaws and at times I feel so unbalance. All that I have gain through out the years are from the mercy of God. I am just a humble slave who needs my Lord proctection and Love to help me through my life.
Me I am nothing….
My creator love and mercy has made my all that I am.

Like I said before, this goal is not easy because pesty negative thoughts are always creeping up on me. But I thank God that He gave me the awareness of this issue so I am able to switch my thoughts back to positive. I really want to keep a clear mind of everyone and always try to have the best intentions in everything that I do.
I ran in to an old friend I should say, a couple a weeks. ago. Her and I had a small falling out online a few months ago. I decided to take her off of my facebook friend list because for the last 2 years I known her she has always been suspect of me. Like if I would say a certain thing she would react like I was being sneaky. I go tired of her on and off so called friendship so I decided to remove her because if she can’t trust me then why keep coming around. well anyway… I never dwell on things so when I saw her I didn’t have anY bad feelings in my heart so I decided to give her a hug. She looked shocked, so then I asked her so what she has been up too she rolled her eyes and said “nothing at all” So I decided to just leave her alone. She reacts like I have been this sneaky jealous person when indeed it was her the one who was always accusing me…
I was thinking I should just email and rekindle this on my part since I don’t have any bad feeling about her. Even though people so things to me that is not nice I alway try to forgive and forget becuase it is not worth holding ill feeling about a person in her heart because I could be mistaking…im thinking about emailing her even though I know she will be rude but as long as I do my part and get the truth out and clear my hear then I will feel better.
Well im going to be truthfull sometimes I do find myself being annoyed about people but then I try to control myself and erase my bad thoughts. I am not clearly innocent on my part but God knows I always switch my thoughts into positive because I dont want bad intentions… are bad feeling about people because just cause you may think a person is bad or out to get you…you could be mistaking… so my modo is to keep a clear mind. Peace

I have been trying with this one. It’s like I just what to think of everything from the point of veiw of my relationship with God. I was thinking about my one friend and how much she and I have in common. Today when I was thinking about her I had a thought of just comparing myself to her. When I had that thought I had to quickly switch my thoughts to…. “everyone has there own journey in life and I should be so caught up in becoming the person God intends me to be and have no need to compare my self with other people beacause they too are on there journey and what ever they have that is what God gave them.” By having this thought in my head during times when I feel weak, it really gives me a boast and I no longer feel those pesty thoughts creeping up on me.

This goal my seem easy but it is truley not. Having Good intentions means doing things soley for its purpose. With no bad nature. It means not boasting for man or doing things for man but soley for God. This is hard because sometimes we may think our intentions our good but it is not. Or one minute we might have good intentions then next thing you know it changes. Having Good intentions also mean just having a good nature, always being honest and truthful and just keeping the heart pure. So everyday I am going to try to purify my intentions and renew them through out the day. I say renew because I know our intentions can easily sway so when I feel as though I am swaying I want to ask God to please purify my intentions once agian.