Completely kick my pain pill habit

In december of last year I was in a car accident with my hubby and son. I injured my back at that time. I can’t say that accident started my pain pill habit cause that would be a lie but that did start the dependancy. James and I always enjoyed pain pills but we always picked up enough for a day or two and had some fun and then that was it till we had some extra money again. I have dealt with pain for years between my jaw issues and my knee, I always battled levels of pain, suddenly after the car accident I hurt ever minute of everyday. Within the month or so after the accident the doctor had me on 90 pills a month and the pain was almost nil but i was doing pill after pill all day long. When we moved back to NC from FL, we didn’t have a doctor so we have be doing without anything other than what we could find here and there and I have been miserable. I have thought about my pain pill habit a lot these past few months and I don’t know that I want to live without any pills at all with this much pain. If I could eliminate some of the pain then maybe I would be ok with trying to elimanate pills but I guess what I am saying is that I want to get a handle on the pills and know that I am only doing them when I have to do them. I want to balance my pain versus my need for the pills. So I guess to a point I am still working on this goal just with a little of an addendum to it.